Dreaming of Jeanni: The Wendy Bird

04012018-17

— चार हजार सात सौ उन्यासी —

Well, here it is: the video compilation tribute to Mom, all done. Or about as done as it's going to get. I kept thinking about how much longer I should tinker with it to perfect it, and then decided, well, I could get sucked into just doing that forever. Might as well just share it.

I wish I could embed it here, but not being able to embed is a compromise I was willing to make so I would not have to compromise the quality of the video itself: it features 10 different tracks, multiple of which are no doubt copyright protected. The algorithms and policy statements of sites like YouTube and Facebook are far more sophisticated now than, say, when I created and posted the Grandma McQuilkin tribute video in 2011 (which featured only one actual music track at the very end anyway, as I recall). I've already learned the hard way when trying to post my annual "Year in Ten Minutes' video to YouTube that sharing videos on those sites results in warnings on my accounts and the videos getting blocked, bullshit like that. I have a relative fix, for now at least, for those "Year in Ten Minutes" videos where I can upload them to Flickr, and still have the option of embedding—but Flickr has a ten-minute per-video length limit per upload.

This tribute video for Mom, which I have entitled, Dreaming of Jeanni: The Wendy Bird, is 83 minutes long, So, uploading to Flickr would only work if I broke it up into nine separate parts, and nobody wants that. I thought I might be able to load the file to DropBox and share it from there, but their memory limit for free accounts is too limited. I have far more memory space at Microsoft's OneDrive (and, I just realized, my 1TB amount of space there is probably because I now have an annual paid subscription to Microsoft Office apps), so that's where I uploaded it. So, if you just click that link, you should just be taken to a page that instantly shows the video.

I'm rather proud of it. I wanted to share the link here because I spent the vast majority of my entire weekend finishing it up—yesterday alone, while Shobhit worked a 9-6 shift, with the exception of breaking to watch two episodes of I May Destroy You on HBO, I spent pretty much the entire time working on it. I was going through one last review of the whole video, with ten minutes left, when Shobhit got home from work. I noted that I had gotten a little emotional a few times watching it, and I think people who cared about Mom the most who watch it will probably cry. People like her grandchildren, or her friends like Darcy, or Karen, or Kris, or Shelley. Maybe even Holly. As for Bill, who is more prominently featured in the video than anyone else besides Mom herself, I don't know if he's even ready to watch it. Maybe, maybe not. The same goes for Christopher, who to this say still has not watched the Grandma McQuilkin memorial video, because he's not sure he could handle it. And this one is of our mother, so who knows?

Anyway. I will probably share the link on social media later this evening. I just want to do a couple of other things first, including create a playlist on Spotify that serves as a "soundtrack album" for this video; and write up a Word document with some notes on the subtext of the tracks I used. In a majority of cases, there is certainly subtext.

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06162020-19

— चार हजार सात सौ उन्यासी —

I'm trying to remember . . . what else did I do over the weekend? On Saturday while Shobhit was working I rode my bike to the office and back to exchange paperwork. I also had to print out the pages of the taxes Shobhit finally finished filing, one day after he applied for and got yet another extension. It was nice to get out for some sun (not too hot, thankfully) and some exercise.

I did not walk with Alexia because we agreed not to walk again until she got her COVID-19 test results back. She texted them to me yesterday: "not detected." As I expected, but it's still a relief to us all to know for sure. She and I have gone on so many walks, had she tested positive I absolutely would have had to get tested immediately too, even though we never stood too close to each other, were always outside, and always had on masks. I had thought maybe we could take a walk somewhere else yesterday, but she's unavailable for at least a week, after having taken so much PTO to take her mother to (unrelated) medical appointments and now she is busy playing catch-up. We'll probably walk again this Saturday or Sunday.

I still hope to go to that same testing site with Shobhit sometime next weekend, to get a recent test done right before we head over to visit Bill, Christopher and Tristen in Wallace. Nikki and TJ might have planned to come join as well, but they have other plans that week to go to Washington. D.C. Although I can't imagine it's the most tourist friendly place right now (what city possibly could be?), so it'll be interesting to see if either they actually still take the trip, or how it actually goes for them. Honestly it's probably best to keep the group small this go-round anyway. I finally called to book the Hercules Inn on Saturday, and although I had no trouble doing so, I was surprised to learn both the ground units were taken and so we had to book one of the two units on the second floor. It's not as much of a concern anyway since Mom's dead and can't come over anyway; Bill will almost certainly still not leave the house; and we don't want to be hanging out with each other indoors as it is. I'm weirdly kind of looking forward to it, as I don't believe we ever booked an upper-level room before. Anything for a slight change of pace. I mean, not that Mom being dead won't be a pretty fucking massive change as of this visit.

Shobhit and I did go shopping at the PCC on 23rd & Union after he got home from work on Saturday, after being insufferably difficult about the idea of going Friday evening, when I got so annoyed I said we could just go another time. He balked at literally every single thing I said I wanted to buy, but then when we were there Saturday, because the Blue Diamond Almond Milk refrigerated half-gallons were on sale, even though he doesn't even drink them (and I use them exclusively for my cereal and for taking my morning pills), he put six of them into our cart. That was just one example of us winding up getting so many groceries that I spent $93—after he was so pissy about spending any money at all on Friday. My husband is fucking impossible.

Anyway. Aside from all that, I spent virtually the entirety of the rest of my weekend working on the memorial tribute video for Mom. I have to say, for me at least, that was some truly fulfilling work. I feel confident that plenty of people will be very, very pleased with it. I mean, the people who knew Mom and loved her, anyway. It'll bore the shit out of anyone else, I'm sure—even though I'm also in nearly all of it! Anyway, just once more for good measure: the link.

— चार हजार सात सौ उन्यासी —

07122020-01

[posted 12:43 pm]

CoronaQuarantine, Day 53 / Birth Week 2020, Day Ten / Virtual Quarantini #11: White Russiantini

05032020-11

Back to work on Monday again . . . but, still updating on the last day of my Birth Week, as this year each day I have been updating in the morning about the day prior. This has meant, though, that quite unusually (but actually typical during my Birth Week), I had daily regular blog posts both days of the weekend two days in a row. Otherwise I would just get too far behind on all my Birth Week activities I had to catch up on.

At least today I have only yesterday to catch up on, instead of Friday through Sunday like I do most Mondays, which is good because I have a lot of work to get done today. Also, not a huge amount to share about yesterday; I merely had a roughly 70-minute Skype call with Shauna. As it happens, the first time I had seen her since my last Birth Week—a year-long break from seeing her that has happened multiple times now. Much as Beth had on Friday, she noted that we can get on Skype again sometime soon, so perhaps we will.

You know what? Just for honestly pointless shits and giggles, I'm going to list who I had video chat calls with all week, and what platform was used.

Friday, April 24, with Laney: Skype
Saturday, April 25, with Jennifer: FaceTime
Sunday, April 26, with Gabriel and Lea: FaceTime
Monday, April 27, with Danielle: FaceTime
Tuesday, April 28, with Dad and Sherri: Facebook Video Chat
Wednesday, April 29, with Lynn and Zephyr: Facebook Video Chat
Thursday, April 30, with several family members: Zoom
Friday, May 1, with Beth: FaceTime
Saturday, May 2, with Claudia and Dylan: Facebook Video Chat
Saturday, May 2: with Sara: Facebook Video Chat
Sunday, May 3: with Shauna, Skype

So, in order of frequency of usage:

FaceTime: 4 calls
Facebook Video Chat: 4 calls
Skype: 2 calls
Zoom: 1 call

A decade ago, the only one of these things, and which was a savior for Shobhit's and my relationship when he lived in New York and then Los Angeles, was Skype. Curiously, now the video quality on that platform is easily the worst and it is not at all my default preference anymore. I feel like FaceTime has the best image quality although Facebook Video Chat is surprisingly close. And Zoon is generally pretty good as well, it's just that it's also the only platform that caps unpaid calls at forty minutes. I keep thinking about looking into how much it would cost to pay for a membership, so I don't have to keep just asking Gina and Beth to host our family Zoom meetups.

Anyway! It was fun catching up with Shauna. She's another one who is a talker, and always has been. No lulls in conversation with her. Her grandson is two now and she goes over to her son's once a week to visit—through the closed sliding glass door. Still no physical contact, but she says there is a nearby window they keep open with a screen on it so they can hear each other well. She headed straight over there after hanging up with me, and that was right after a family Zoom call she had before calling me. Shauna was quite the virtual social butterfly yesterday.

My drink was a White Russian (as always, with Irish Cream rather than yucky coffee flavored Kahlua). Shauna took a tequila shot. She says she does that regularly with her girlfriends on weekly Zoom calls since they can't go out drinking together. I took so many pictures just trying to get a good one of her taking the shot, it became the perfect set of photos for me to make the first animated gif of the week.

Then, once I finished with those shots posed in front of a pig painting on my computer (because Shauna loves pigs), I moved over to the dining table to sit out the rest of the call. We did keep on taking several screenshots from both our sides of the conversation, but I only kept a few of them as otherwise they were all too similar; as such, yesterday's full photo album on Flickr contains only 13 shots total, making it officially the smallest photo album of the week. But! Because there is an extra item put in there as the animation of the three shots of Shauna taking the shot, the album still gets shown as having 14 shots in it, thereby on a technicality making it still tied with the Sara/Saturday photo set as the smallest album of the week. Those were the last two of the week, out of 13 separated photo albums, and clearly indicated a bit of a "winding down" as my Birth Week drew to a close.

Given the limitations of doing my Birth Week in the middle of "stay-home" orders due to a global pandemic, I'm pretty happy about that; I clocked in at 13 photo albums last year as well. They each had an average of many more photos, but whatever, I'll take what I can get. I did consider doing posed photos with Shauna's face on my iPad out in the inner courtyard of the Braeburn West building, which I had not used yet, but decided the inclusion of the pig was enough for the photos with Shauna.

I did add the collage I made of my posed photos with drinks from everyone all week in the Shauna photo album, though. I created it and posted it on the same day, after all.

05032020-13

In other news, I have a supporting part in the chorus of a really cool video Hayley made (Laney's friend, of Thayer and Hayley fame—Thayer being Laney's long-ago ex but always still close friend), and shared just yesterday. She reached out early the week before last, asking people to send her video of themselves singing the chorus to OneRepublic's song "Connection, and I was one of the people she tagged to ask to do this because she knew I used to sing in the Seattle Lesbian and Gay Chorus, along with Laney. (That, as it happens, was where Laney and I met—twenty years ago, in August 2000! We've known each other since she was younger than I am now.)

I asked when she would need it by, and she asked to get it by the following Saturday (April 25). I did my part on April 23, using the lyric video version so I didn't have to spend five times as much time on it memorizing the lines—because, at first, I thought I would try singing the whole song. I lost my patience though and never did do any better than just singing the second part of most lines, with headphones in (as instructed). The chorus is high for my range without going into falsetto, by I managed it. Still, even keeping one AirPod out of my ears so I could hear myself enough to stay in tune, listening back without being able to hear the music was something I found deeply embarrassing, and once I sent a couple clips to Hayley, I deleted them and hope never to watch those videos again.

This is a key difference between the me now and the me of fifteen or twenty years ago: in the past, I would have been too embarrassed to send the clips. Now, I was still embarrassed but I sent them anyway. I knew I would just get blended with a bunch of other people singing the chorus. And guess what? A bunch of other people participated who sang way worse, as you can plainly see below. But! As expected, Hayley still blended us all very well, singing alternate, parody lyrics that at Hayley's request Laney wrote for her. Laney has long written parody lyrics for songs sung by small ensemble choral groups she was in.

In any case, Hayley took a week to finish it up, and finally shared it yesterday. It's very sweet and pointedly rewritten for this era of pandemic self-isolation, and I think it turned out quite well. You can see me among the many little boxes of separate people singing the chorus in their homes (I made my bamboo plant my backdrop). Near the end, you can see the very end of the clip I sent to Hayley just for her amusement, in which I screwed up and just let out an exasperated tongue-babble. It cracked me up to see the visual of that included.

[posted 12:30 pm]